So I recently realized that it has been nearly two years since I last posted on here. The last post was a happy one full of upbeat feelings. This one, not so much. Let me start by updating about things between me and Tara. We are no longer together. After having lived with each other for almost a year we broke up. There were several factors for that, but I think the main ones were that we had moved in together too soon and that we were too different in how we viewed a lot of things. Also the fact that I am polyamorous and she is monogamous played a factor.
After Tara I spent a few months single before I began dating Lisa. Things were going well; we had good sexual chemistry, we had similar interests, we were both poly, and we enjoyed each other's company. We wound up not lasting as a couple but we are still friends (with benefits which I am glad for). So now I am single again and will probably stay that way for a while.
I'm choosing to stay single because I've realized that I haven't been in a long time and that after going from one relationship to another to another has not given me the chance to make some changes in my life.
And that brings me to the biggest, most heart breaking change in my life. As of January 23rd 2014 my dad died. He died of bone cancer after having only been diagnosed in November. The last two months have been very difficult for me. My dad and I were very close and we hung out like friends. We had a lot of the same interests whih made it easier to relate to each other. I wouldn't call him my best friend but I would say that he was a good one. I'm slowly healing from it but I am definitely not the same person I was. I never realized how much I relied on him to be a sounding board for a lot of things in my life. He always was able to help me out with a problem whether it was emotional, monetary(which wasn't often), or silly. He usually helped put things in perspective and made me feel better. I'm going to miss that. I think this is the first time I've really talked about it honestly. Just the other day I his urn and I've already begun to feel better. Before he passed I'll admit I wasn't exactly doing much to be an adult. Sure I had a full time job and was living on my own again but I didn't really feel like a grown-up. Now, with everything that has happened, I am beginning to. Don't get me wrong, there is a level of childishness but maybe not as high as before. I will always miss my dad but I am learning that he raised me well enough that I will be fine. It's going to be hard at times, especially if there is something that I would normally call him about and realize that he isn't here anymore; but I believe I will get through it.
I should also mention that as of December 2013(technically February 2014 as that is when the dr gave me the all clear) I am sterile. I went and got myself a vasectomy as I don't want to have children. The reaction to that has been varied but not bad. Strangely enough more of my female friends have commended me on it than the male ones have. I'm glad I took that step, it means that I won't have to worry about potentially ruining my life or the life of a kid who wouldn't be wanted.
So that is what has been going on in my life(well the cliff notes version anyway), in the 18 months or so since my last blog post a lot has happened. Some good, most bad, but I'm alright. I have my health, I have friends, I have family, my life isn't too bad. Hopefully it won't be so long before my next post and with any luck I plan on posting good thing.
Oh and if you want to follow me other places I have a tumblr page now(have for over a year now). It's supergeek1.tumblr.com so check it out if you are on tumblr. Be warned it is NSFW a lot of times but I share various things that I fine interesting, hot, funny, or just plain goofy.
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