It's that time of year again. That time where people go out to the theaters to see explosions, fighting, a bit of romance, and a few laughs; it's summer movie time. Normally I look on this timeframe with excitement and anticipation, this year it is a bit less. This will be thw first year I'm going to see these movies without my dad here. Every summer since me and my sister were kids going to the movies during the summer was one of the things we always did. I can only think of two summers where we didn't and that was during the two years we lived with our grandmother in Pennsylvania. I'll admit that as an adult it happened less often, and my sister didn't go with us(but my brother did sometimes), but we still managed to go from time to time. Even if we didn't see a movie together we would always chat about them when we saw them. We always talked about our favorite parts and would speculate about where they could go if they made a sequel. Heck, after they showed Thanos at the end of Avengers and before they announced it, my dad was saying how they needed to make Guardians of the Galaxy. One of the things I would do sometimes is go see a movie and then if he asked me if I wanted to go see it I would lie and say I hadn't. I'd later tell him that I had already seen it afterwards and he'd jokingly give me shit about it. It's funny but even though I'm an adult, pay my own bills, and have a decent job, my dad almost always treated when we went to the movies. Even when I had money to pay for myself he would say "Aw man, you're good. Don't worry about it, you'll get me next time", and I would(if I had the money of course). Of all the things I'll remember about my dad, going to or talking about the movies during the summer will always be my favorite. So seeing the movies this summer is bittersweet. I'm enjoying them but it really sucks that he isn't here to either watch them with or talk to about them. I'm still going to go see them, as he wouldn't want me to stop just for that, but I really miss him. This summer is going to be rough, with Father's Day in June and his birthday in August. But you know what, I'll be ok. There are a bunch of great movies coming out that I'm sure I'll enjoy, and even though things are different, I know that he wouldn't have it any other way.
Monday, June 2, 2014
Sunday, June 1, 2014
Driving
Well I have an announcement to make. As of today it has been exactly one month that I have been officially driving. Yes, you ready that correctly, I have been driving. I have a car and have been on the road. That's actually the reason I stated that I would be getting out more and how people have been able to see me more often recently. While this is the first time I have actually posted about it I haven't been all that secretive about it either. If I showed up to a place and someone asked how I got there I would mention it, but I also didn't go too much out of my way to bring it up(well until now that is).
It has certainly been a nice and interesting experience. I realize that there are a lot more assholes on the road than I thought as a passenger. I've also come to realize that apparently blinkers do not exist on most people's cars(I know they actually do but a shit load of people don't use them). I've also noticed that apparently there are a lot of Nascar drivers in the St. Louis area. As well as turtles with driver's licenses.
One thing that sucks is that while I have been driving a short time I already need to get a new windshield. I know you're probably wondering how that happened. Well about two or three weeks ago I was on my way to work; I was driving behind a truck with a bunch of junk in the back. As I'm driving either a rock pops up or a small piece of something fell off the back of the truck(which is more likely) and hit my windshield. When I heard it "WTF!?!" was my initial reaction. I looked and at the time it seemed that nothing bad had happened. Well a few days later I'm looking out my windshield and I notice a medium sized crack. Over the next couple of weeks the crack got bigger. The thing is big enough now, I'll probably have to get the whole windshield replaced. It sucks but will need to be done.
Overall it has been cool driving myself around, I just wish it had come about from better circumstances. The only reason I'm driving now is because shortly before he got diagnosed with Cancer my dad had bought a new car. When he passed it was decided that I would get the car. I needed to get my license in order to drive it and here we are. It's been hard sometimes when I run into friends or people I know and they ask me about the car or compliment my "choice" in car. With the people I consider close, I tell them the truth, but the people I'm not close with, I just say thanks and continue on. It really hurts when someone says to me "About time", because it just reminds me that the cost of this step forward in my life was too high.....
Sorry, that took a bit of a dark turn there. In all honesty, I have enjoyed driving, with the exception of the dickheads who are out on the road(and yes I'm aware that to someone else I am one of them). I look forward to getting out more and having the freedom to go to more stuff. Oh and don't worry, there will be a point where I make a blog post where I don't mention my dad(the next one is not ine of them). Until then, bare with me.
Monday, April 7, 2014
Comic-Con
Oh my god, two blog posts in one month; I must be serious about that whole keeping up thing I mentioned.
So this past weekend I went to Wizard World Comic-Con St. Louis. I went with my best friend and my little brother. It was fun and I had an amazing time. We arrived on friday, went and checked in, and started walking around the vendor area.
DAY 1
The first thing I saw when I got there was the booth for Ultrasabers. They are a company known for making lightsabers. They usually have set styles that people get but when I got to that booth I saw something I never expected to see. I saw the Saber of Omens. For those who don't know what that might be it is the Sword of Omens from Thundercats as a lightsaber. It was the coolest thing ever, and I bought one. Now mind you, I had no plans to do so, but when you have an opportunity like that, you take it. So I bought it and I look forward to using it.
After that, day one was mostly filled with walking around and visiting friends. There is something pretty sweet about having friends who have booths at an event like that. One of which being it makes them easier to find when wanting to hang out. The food choices were about the same as last year. Expensive but still good. He only complaint I really had was the lack of tables and chairs to sit at in the food area. I understand that with the amount of people attending you can't have seats for everyone without losing Con space, but if your food venders are in an area where there is nothing else around then damn it give people a place to sit. And no, the floor is not a viable place to sit. When you have been walking around for a few hours and decide to get food, the last thing you want to do is have to sit your happy ass on the cement floor.
Now unlike last year I did try and attend some panels. On Friday I only attended one. It was a Doctor Who panel that mostly discussed the end of Matt Smith's run. It was pretty cool, I even got up and asked a question of the panelists. I ended the day with seeing Captain America: The Winter Soldier which was an awesome movie.
Overall, day one was a good day. There was one issue, but that's not really my story to tell.
DAY 2
The second day was my favorite of the weekend.
It started with putting on my Renaissance Superman costume. I hadn't worn it since I went to Renn Faire last year and it was nice to wear it again. So we(me, my bestie, and my brother) went over the Con and were able to see some more friends. I went to a speed-dating event. That was pretty fun. I did kind of feel like the guy running it was kind of douchy. He kind of talked to everyone as if we were those stereotypical nerds you see on tv who couldn't get a date to save their lives. I've been in the geek/nerd community long enough to know that type is a rarity. Either way it was pretty fun. Made a couple of new friends, and have a new tumblr to follow. After that I went back to my room to change out of the costume. Partly because my feet were starting to hurt in the boots I was wearing, but also because the clasp for my cloak had come off and was no longer usable. Will have to work on getting that fixed. If only I knew people who knew costuming lol.
The next thing I did was go back for my picture with Karen Gillian and Matt Smith of Doctor Who. Got in line about an hour before the photo opp which was a good thing because it was already packed. I jad gotten tickets for my bestie amd I as we are both fans. We had found out that each pass could actually get two people for the photo. She decided to invite my brother into hers which is cool, except he had never watched the show. I invited a good friend of mine.
After the photo we headed back to the hotel room to prepare for a room party we were throwing. I had decided to throw a room party after booking the room when I realized how large the room was going to be. I'm not going to lie, I was really nervous. I had invited friends out before for a party but having friends come to a restaurant for your birthday is not quite the same as throwing one where you have to take care of the details. I must say it was a resounding success. There was a good turn out with friends both new and old. It definitely made me confident about possibly throwing parties in the future. I'll admit the fact that it ended with me in bed alone is something I would have changed but that's how things go.
Day two was loads better than day one. Seeing as how day one was amazing that says something.
DAY 3
So the third day was a bit more subdued. It was the last day of the Con and so there wasn't as much to try and experience. At least not as far as the Con went. We mostly spent this day going around to the booths friends had and saying hi. My bestie and my brother wanted to go around and get the free stuff that came with their badge which is cool. I had done that on friday so I mostly just walked with them and occasionally made my goodbyes to friends as I saw them.
This was the first event this year where I was reminded how much I missed my dad. Him, my brother, and I were originally planning on going together. My dad even wanted to try and do a steampunk costume. So while I had fun doing this without him it still hurt. But I think in the end, he would be proud of me for being able to have a good time anyway. He would have been the first to tell me that I couldn't change what happened, so going and enjoying myself would have been the only thing to do. I could hear him now: "Did you have a good time? Then don't let the fact that I wasn't there change that."
Overall I had a lot of fun and it was a great experience. Good friends, good booze, much laughter and smiles, and lots of joy was had, and you know what? In the end that is all that matters.
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
I do what I want
Well here I am again, attempting to post more and keep this thing from becoming a tomb of thoughts long past.
Today I am writing about something that always bothers me. People's need to tell others that their opinion/likes/dislikes/whatever are wrong. It's a thing I've noticed for a while but today I felt like talking about it. What brought this up was something a coworker said. Before I get into that, a little background.
A few months back, when my dad was still in the hospital, I let a bit more facial hair than usual grow out. I'll admit I can't grow much of a beard, and it came out looking kind of scraggly, but i decided to do it. At first I was going to let it grow to see how it turned out, but shortly after deciding to do so I found out about my dad's condition. After that I decided that I wasn't going to shave it until things resolved themselves one way or the other. From the reactions I got from guys at work you would think I had committed a capital offense. Every opportunity they had they took to tell me how bad it looked, or how I needed to shave it, or just outright laughter. Now to be fair, during this time I wasn't exactly talking too much to a lot of people about what was going on. I only mentioned it to the one or two people I consider friends and they understood and letbit go. The others though, my goodness. It is amazing how it seems as if other guys try to control the way someone thinks or does things. One day, after about a month or so of this I blew up at a couple of them and told them my reasons. One or two seemed sympathetic but a few others kind of chuckled about it. I believe they were chuckling more about my reaction to them rather than the reasons I gave(at least that's what I choose to believe). Either way they dropped it. When my dad passed I shaved and haven't really thought of it since until today.
So I come into work just a regular day when a dick of a coworker(that has always been my opinion of him not just brought on by this) tells me that he likes the look I have at the moment much better. At first I had no idea what he was talking about as the look I have now I've had for a few years. It seems he was talking about that time period where I let my "beard" grow out. This annoyed me. I explained to him how his opinion didn't actually matter to me, especially when it comes to my looks. Actually when it comes to how I look no guys opinion matters to me. Primarily for two reasons. The first and main one is that I dress for me(yes I realize the irony of that statement coming from a man especially with the next reason). The second is that in the grand scheme of things, the only opinions other than my own I listen to, when it comes to my style, are women's. Now I accept that that might sound misogynistic and for that I apologize, but the truth is I'm straight and therefore sleep with women. Their opinion means more to me; because I feel that even if they have no interest in me, they are still basing their opinion on what they think looks good on a guy(or at least me if they are talking to me about it). There tends to be two reactions from guys to a statement like that. One being "No shit" and the other being "You're whipped". Now by pure coincidence the few male friends I have(about 85% of my friends are female, and don't get me started on how guys treat that tidbit) are of the "No shit" variety. They understand how the opinions of the people you are attracted to are somewhat more relevant than those of people you aren't.
Now I figure that by this point you are probably wondering what that story has to do with the original premise of this post. Let me explain, no that would be too long, let me sum up. It seems that people love to tell you you are wrong in the things you like, or enjoy, or just want to do, if it doesn't line up with their thoughts on those things.
I'll be the first to admit I like a lot of stuff. Whether it's movies, comics, books, music, or people. Because of that I have been accused of liking everything and everyone. While that isn't entirely true the thing I have never understood is what difference does it make. An example, and I know a lot of people will judge me for it, is that I like the Star Wars Prequel Trilogy. Now that you all had the collective gasp, understand that I am aware of it's flaws and have issues with those myself, but the main reason why I like them is that it is Fucking Star Wars. Yes Jar Jar Binks sucked, the droids were idiotic, and some of the acting was sub-par at best but all I care about is that it's Star Wars. The reason I use that as an example is because when I like something/someone I don't think too deeply into why I just know that I do. I know quite a few people who could tell you point for point every single reason they like something, I am not one of them. The main reason for that is that I don't think too deeply about it. Once I have accepted that I like or enjoy something then that is all I need to know. The same applies asbto why I don't like something/someone. Now in those cases I can give all the reasons, mainly because once I realize I don't like something, then I examine why so that I can feel, in my own mind, that it isn't for some arbitrary reason.
I guess what I'm trying to say with all of this rambling talk is that people shouldn't try to control what others like and don't like. Even if you don't agree you should let them have that. I think the main reason people make such a big deal about it is that they want validation for their own thoughts and opinions, and nothing does that better than someone agreeing with you. But you'll be amazed at how much less stress you have when you either stop caring about or trying to control the opinions of others. Now as I said earlier I do make exceptions, but those are the people who have a bigger impact on my life and who my choices actively affect them.
Well that's all for now. I'm aware that I ramble and that a lot of what I said probably won't make sense to people but you know what, I don't care. There's a line from a movie/tv show/ whatever that I think fits perfectly here....."I do what I want"
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Nothing is the same
So I recently realized that it has been nearly two years since I last posted on here. The last post was a happy one full of upbeat feelings. This one, not so much. Let me start by updating about things between me and Tara. We are no longer together. After having lived with each other for almost a year we broke up. There were several factors for that, but I think the main ones were that we had moved in together too soon and that we were too different in how we viewed a lot of things. Also the fact that I am polyamorous and she is monogamous played a factor.
After Tara I spent a few months single before I began dating Lisa. Things were going well; we had good sexual chemistry, we had similar interests, we were both poly, and we enjoyed each other's company. We wound up not lasting as a couple but we are still friends (with benefits which I am glad for). So now I am single again and will probably stay that way for a while.
I'm choosing to stay single because I've realized that I haven't been in a long time and that after going from one relationship to another to another has not given me the chance to make some changes in my life.
And that brings me to the biggest, most heart breaking change in my life. As of January 23rd 2014 my dad died. He died of bone cancer after having only been diagnosed in November. The last two months have been very difficult for me. My dad and I were very close and we hung out like friends. We had a lot of the same interests whih made it easier to relate to each other. I wouldn't call him my best friend but I would say that he was a good one. I'm slowly healing from it but I am definitely not the same person I was. I never realized how much I relied on him to be a sounding board for a lot of things in my life. He always was able to help me out with a problem whether it was emotional, monetary(which wasn't often), or silly. He usually helped put things in perspective and made me feel better. I'm going to miss that. I think this is the first time I've really talked about it honestly. Just the other day I his urn and I've already begun to feel better. Before he passed I'll admit I wasn't exactly doing much to be an adult. Sure I had a full time job and was living on my own again but I didn't really feel like a grown-up. Now, with everything that has happened, I am beginning to. Don't get me wrong, there is a level of childishness but maybe not as high as before. I will always miss my dad but I am learning that he raised me well enough that I will be fine. It's going to be hard at times, especially if there is something that I would normally call him about and realize that he isn't here anymore; but I believe I will get through it.
I should also mention that as of December 2013(technically February 2014 as that is when the dr gave me the all clear) I am sterile. I went and got myself a vasectomy as I don't want to have children. The reaction to that has been varied but not bad. Strangely enough more of my female friends have commended me on it than the male ones have. I'm glad I took that step, it means that I won't have to worry about potentially ruining my life or the life of a kid who wouldn't be wanted.
So that is what has been going on in my life(well the cliff notes version anyway), in the 18 months or so since my last blog post a lot has happened. Some good, most bad, but I'm alright. I have my health, I have friends, I have family, my life isn't too bad. Hopefully it won't be so long before my next post and with any luck I plan on posting good thing.
Oh and if you want to follow me other places I have a tumblr page now(have for over a year now). It's supergeek1.tumblr.com so check it out if you are on tumblr. Be warned it is NSFW a lot of times but I share various things that I fine interesting, hot, funny, or just plain goofy.
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Happy Update
First off the(in my opinion) biggest thing; I've moved in with Tara. Chances are if you are on my fb friends list you already know this but it's worth repeating. I am incredibly excited as this is the fist time I have ever actively lived with a girlfriend. I've had women I've dated crash at my place for a bit but never one where both of our names are on the lease. With s moving in together have acquired two dogs. Their names are Charlie and Charlotte. They are older Chihuahua mixes and they are pretty cool. Normally I'm more of a cat person but these dogs are chill so I don't feel like they are as emotionally needy as most dogs tend to be. We're in two bedroom apartment that isn't all that expensive considering it's only bout twenty dollars more than my last apartment and that was more like a studio convertible than a one bedroom. It's been almost a month and things are going pretty good. I've name the apartment The Nut House; mainly for my nickname Chesnut and coincidentally because Tara is a Psych Med Tech so it doubly works.
With that I am giving up running the Single's Munch. I feel it's fair as I no longer qualify as truly single. Luckily I found someone who is willing to continue running it for me. He's been attending for a while o I definitely think he's good fit. I am keeping the option open that I may return but with any luck I won't need to. I am glad that I wasn't the only success from it. A few other people fund relationships which I am very proud of. I hope to keep hearing about it for a few years even if I never go back to it.
Another thing I did recently was go to World Con in Chicago. I had a pretty good time. I attended a few panels and really enjoyed playing this game called Battle Tech. It is a giant mech game ad this one I played had cockpit pods for the players to sit in; it was awesome. I shared a hotel room with a few friends, it was a new experience as before that I had only ever shared a hotel room with family or someone I was dating but pretty cool. I think that if I had to do that again it would be cool. I know one thing, after this Con I know want to go to Dragoncon. Hopefully next year I can do just that.
Well, that's all that's been going on with me. So far things have been good and I am a happier person for it. With any luck(preferably good) things will stay that way.
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Life Update
It's been a while since I last made an entry here and quite a bit has happened. It's been about three months since the last entry so I will do my best to bring things up to date. I know I said a few posts back that I'd try and post more but sometimes things get away from you.
It's only April and 2012 has been turning out to be an interesting year so far.
One big thing was Conflation. I had a great time that weekend and got to spend time with all of my friends that I've grown close with in the last few years. I'm not going to go into detail like I did last year as a good amount of the interesting stuff isn't really mine to tell. One thing I did experience which I truly wish I hadn't is a Drink calle Venom. Oh My God, that shit was crazy. I probably should have known that it wasn't something I should have tried as a.) The drink came with instructions on how to drink it and b.) The instructions were "Take a deep breath", "Hold your breath while you take the shot", and "Breathe out through your mouth slowly after you take the shot"; with the added direction of "Whatever you do don't breath in". I'll admit I was hesitant but apparently, even at 30, peer pressure can be affective lol. So I took the drink, following the directions of course, and Holy Shit was that stuff strong. So strong it burned all the way down and after taking it I had trouble breathing for a minute or two. Once I was able to breath again I thought I was ok; I was wrong. Seems that my stomach was not a huge fan of Venom. After 5 minutes, where I was talking and trying to recover, my body was like "Get this shit out of me". Suffice it to say Venom burned just as much coming up as it did going down.
Another thing that has happened this year is that I started a Single's Munch for all of the single people in the local BDSM community. I started it after being made a moderator for a single's group on FL. I started it for a few reasons; the main one being that others who attended munches felt like the odd person out. As accepting and inclusive as the St. Louis BDSM community is, things seem to be more geared towards those in relationships rather than singles. So I started the Munch and man was I nervous. I mean here I am starting something that, as far as I knew, no one else was attempting to do and it turned out to be a success. The first one had about twelve people(maybe a few more) show up and we all got to know each other and had fun. The second one had more people; including one who I am very happy to have met. The third one is soon and there might have to be a change on my end of things.
One more thing that's happened so far this year is that I am in a relationship with a gorgeous, funny, adorable, intelligent, and downright awesome woman. Her name is Tara. It's funny, I actually met her at March's Single's Munch. Originally I contacted her on OKcupid because I saw her profile on there and thought she was pretty and interesting. She replied and said she saw me on FL and was going to ask me about the Single's Munch. So she showed up and we spent the whole two hours talking, occasionally joining in on the other conversations. While we were talking I kept wondering how I could ask her out without breaking the vibe of the conversation we were having. Then it happened, she said something that I was totally able to use in my favor. She said "The last movie I saw in theaters was Avatar", I replied with "Oh we so have to fix this. What are you doing after the munch?" We've been dating ever since :). We have a really good connection; a lot of things in common including having birthdays only days apart from each other. I've got to say it's nice that her birthday is only three days after mine; no way am I forgetting it lol.
It's interesting though that just a few months after admitting that I am polyamorous I meet a woman that is monogamous and want a mono relationship. I'm willing to give her one. I know that had it been anyone else I wouldn't be willing to do that but for her there is no question in my mind that I can. I plan on bringing her around me friends soon and introduce her. I'm sure they'll like her a lot. We already have one friend in common so I wouldn't be surprised if she gets along with the others.
So that's what's been going on with me these last few months. It's been an interesting year so far and I am looking forward to what is to come. I hope that things continue to be good and my eventual end of the year post is just as positive as this one.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Feel honored
So last night I went to The Crack Fox because they were holding The Burlesqkies. An awards show for the folks of The Thunderkittens and all those who help make their shows amazing. I was given the honorary award of "Burlesque fan of the year". It was really awesome to get that award.
I knew about it before I got to The Crack Fox mind you but I was late getting there as I get off work at 8:30 and don't get home until 9. So after getting home and changing clothes I went straight there. I don't care what anyone says nothing rocks more than having people cheer for you. A friend had posted on my facebook page that people had been cheering for me when they announced my award. I was a bit late getting there because of the timing of things but when I got there they pulled me on stage and gave me my award. It was definetly an awesome feeling.
Afterward I hung out for a couple of hours. I'm actually friends with the people who are members of both The Thunderkittens burlesque troop and Dragon's Gaze fire troop and I've got to say it's pretty cool. I've learned that I even have a bit of my own fame because of it. Nothing is cooler than having people I've not met recognizing me and telling me they think I'm cool.
I attached a pic taken by Charlotte Sumtimes, a good friend and burlesque performer with the Thunderkittens, of me with my award :-)
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Been thinking
With my recent break-up(got back with the girl mentioned in "Unforgivable" and are broken up again) I've been thinking about the nature of my relationships.
I recently realized that I've been involved with someone for almost three years now. That could technically qualify as my longest relationship yet; except for the fact that it's not a relationship in the traditional sense. She best describes it as a non-relationship and that seems like a good description to me. The thing that seems to stick out most to me though is the fact that that has lasted longer than any of my full fledged relationships. Now if this were a movie or something some friend would probably say that it has affected my other relationships; I can definetly say though that it hasn't, as this issue has been going on for a long time. Truth be told this has nothing to do with that conversation. This is more about me wondering why the others haven't lasted as long.
Now I do realize that the common factor in all of my past relationships is me. I've dumped, been dumped, and have just had things just fizzle and die. There are probably some things I need to change about my approach to relationships. For one thing I need to stop allowing myself to be pulled into relationships so fast. The majority of the women I've dated that led to a relationship happened within the first couple of dates. As a friend I tried to date pointed out to me (and I may be remembering poorly) "The fire that burns brightest burns quickest" and that is how a lot of my relationships have gone. We start dating and it's all passion and "I love you" and all that way too quickly. I know I for one tend to get swept up by my emotions and it's as if I have no control over them. I fall hard and fast. The relationship always seems to end about the same; hard and fast.
The interesting thing(to me anyway) is the fact that with the women I'm more than friends (but not in a relationship) with I don't seem to have that problem. I don't put any pressure on things and am more relaxed. That may be why they have all lasted longer. Part of the reason is the fact that I know from the get go that it's not as serious and therefore I don't feel the need to try so hard or cling as much. I don't know if it's because I know that from day one or if it's the fact that the way things happened I was more comfortable being myself. Either way I'm not throwing "I love you" out there(I do still love them it's just different) and not placing any sort of expectations about how long we'll last or where things are going or any of that stuff.
I think what I need to do is figure out how to get my mind to a place where I can treat a full fledged relationship like I treat those. I'm planning on taking time off from being in a relationship and try to work on myself and my issues as much as I can. I'm not giving up on them and if someone decides they are interested in dating me then that's good but I do need to make some changes in how I handle things. I know what I do wrong in relationships so I need to stop doing those things. I also need to stop treating every relationship like it's the one that is going to lead to the whole "Happily ever after" thing. Honestly I'm not entirely sure I even know what my happily ever after will be. Over the years the ideas I had of what I want have changed as I change. When I was younger my ideal was a wife, kids, the whole nine. I now know that kids aren't something I want, a wife would have to be someone accepting of polyamory, and there are other things that have changed in what I want.
Now that I'm 30 I think it's time to do what needs to be done to get what I want.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Looking Back
My confidence is higher than it has ever been. No longer do I hear compliments from friends and feel as if they are "Just saying that" partly because some of the things said to me has been random and completely unsolicited. With that came an ability to just be myself. I used to be someone who would adjust my personality based on who I was hanging out with just so they would like me more. Admittedly I tended to do that more with relationships than friendships but I did it all the same. To steal a line from Popeye, I am what I am and that's all that I am.
There are some things that I probably could have done differently but for the most part I wouldn't change a thing. I realized(rather accepted) the fact that I'm polyamorous and doing so has changed my dating life for the better. I no longer feel as if something is missing even when in a relationship. I moved into a new place after three years at my old place. Can't wait for spring/summer to get here so I can hit the pool.
I've also discovered I've become popular. Not like high school popular where I have to maintain some sort of image for people to like me but a different sort of popular. I've on more than one occasion last year had someone come up to me and say hi recognizing me that I don't always remember meeting.
Dating in 2011 was very interesting. I met a few women that I felt strongly for where some turned good, and some turned bad. I no longer feel as alone as I used to and don't feel the need to find "The One" as much. Don't get me wrong I do want to find that special woman that I can one day marry(and was thinking I had but that's for another blog).
I am very much looking forward to 2012. I have a feeling that this is going to be an awesome year and I don't believe that whole end of the world crap. I realiaze this post was rather short but it was really just to say how I survived another year and that things seem to be going good. I just don't see how my life could possibly get any better than it is now.
I hope everyone had a good New Year's Eve and I hope folks have a great 2012. Am going to try and post more often. I figure even if it's not an earth shattering or incredibly exciting post it will be mine. Because in the long run that's what this blog is about. My Life and everything that comes with it.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Unforgivable
First off let me say that I am ok with people who smoke weed. As drugs go it is considered one of the softer drugs out there and in all honesty if it wasn't illegal I would have tried it myself at one point. Before I start the next bit of this let me say that if you have a problem with me mentioning something someone has done that I don't agree with on the grounds that I shouldn't put their business out there stop reading now. A good number of you won't know who I'm talking about and the few who do already know what's going on in the first place.
The main reason I broke up with MF(yes I broke up with her) is because after years of her being clean she is back on drugs. That is something I can not and will not forgive. This particular reason hit me harder than any other because I have history with it. I wasn't on drugs but when I was a kid my mom was. She has been off of them for 15 years through strength of will and (in her words) "The grace of god." I was around her during a lot of that time and while I didn't know specifically what she was doing I knew she was on drugs. There were a few years where they took her away from me and I didn't see her and rarely heard from her. It took me a few years to forgive her and get past it. I'm glad my mom has been back in my life for all the years she has been and I love her a great deal. That is not something I want to deal with in my life again. I know that addiction is a powerful thing to escape but in all honesty I no longer care. Even though I didn't know her when she was on it before I have an idea of what type of person she'll become. While I've dealt with most of those issues, finding about what MF has done brought a lot of the feelings I had gotten past back. I'll get over this in the long run but I'll not be with her any time soon and if we do end up in each other's lives again it will only be as friends.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
30th Birthday Celebration
Day 1(Pirate Fest)
The first day of my birthday celebration was September 25th 2011. It's one day before my birthday but it's also the day that most everyone I know and invited was(for the most part) off work. So the day started normal enough I got up ate some cereal and watched a bit of tv. The plan was for me to meet AH I at the Delmar Metrolink station as it was the easiest way for us to meet up to go to Pirate Fest.So I took a shower, got dressed in my Pirate Garb that I was going to wear for Fest, and headed out the door.I got to the Metrolink stop around 10:30 and went to the wrong end of the station. AH I called me to ask where I was and I walked down to the other end of the platform once I realized where she was. We left there and went to her place so that she could finish getting ready and we could wait on LA* and R. After everyone was ready we headed out to Wentzville for Pirate Fest. Stopped at Wendy's on the way to get food (yummy) and stayed on the highway the reast of the way. We got to Pirate Fest at about 12:30 or so. Me and LA went ahead in as AHI and R had some talking to do.
Now my friend J had texted me earlier to let me know that her and JB had a couple of tickets waiting for me and AH I. So me and LA get to the gate and we were talking about how this was going to work as AH I and R were still talking and there was only tickets for me and AHI. The plan had been that me and AHI would get those tickets and R would pay for himself and LA but things got easier when LA and I ran into MS I. I totally wouldn't have noticed her if she hadn't run up to me to say hi and give me a hug. I made introductions between her and LA and she asked me if we needed passes. I said yes right away. With the two she gave me that left the two that J left me and AH I for AH I and R instead. So after telling MS I to watch out for AH I, LA and I walked into Pirate Fest. While we were walking up the first hill LA saw a stand that was selling little flower head pices that she wanted to get. Since she didn't have to use the money her mom gave her for passes she used some of it for that. She asked me to hold the money for her after that because she didn't have any pockets and knew it would be safe with me. So after that we walked up the hill a bit more and we decided to go check out this juggler that looked to be having a cool show. I must say he was quite impressive. Especially when he gopped on a ball and started juggling fire. while I was watching the juggler I messaged AH I and told her about the two remaining tickets and that she should only take two as the other two were for Team Rocket(lol). admittedly I didn't call them that in the text but it works for here.
So after watching the juggler LA and I started walcing around. I stopped over to the Drcosinister Blades booth as I'm friends with the man who runs it and I wanted to say hi to him. while we were then I ran into a couple more of my friends we chatted for a bit but they were on their way out so they didn't stay very long. After that LA and I started walking up the hill and were trying to decide where to go next when i saw my friend MO working booth. I just had to go say hi. Turns out she wasn't feeling too well but it was good to see her. my friend AO was also there and it was good to see her as I hadn't seen her in quite a while. I was glad that, for the most part, she's been doing pretty good and was happy. LA and myself were getting ready to leave that booth when AH I and R caught up with us.
We all started walking together going further in to Pirate Fest when AH I said that she had to go find our friends L & M so she can take engagement photos for them. LA wanted to watch some hoola hoop performers that were supposed to do a fire performance. Since I wanted to see more of my friends it was decided that I would continue to walk with AH I and LA would stay and watch the show with R.
As I'm walkiing with AH I, I saw my friend DZ which was good as I had something to give him another friend had asked me to hold on to until I saw him. so I gave that and waved/said hi to a couple other friends and moved on.
Now it's at this point that I'm going to gloss over a good section of the rest of Pirate Fest because a.) I'd been drinking for quite a bit and the buzz that had built up was pretty strong,and b.)not much really happened other than just hanging out with friends and having a good time. I did get a really cool picture of three people dressed as Doctor Who plus a young lady who looked like Amy Pond. The funny thing is that the girl wasn't actually with them. I came across them as she was telling them how cool their costumes were and I happened to notice that she was a red head who did kind of look like the actress who plays Amy Pond on the current run of Doctor Who. There was laughs. A few jokes about L's level of drunkness. A bunch of us was using it as an adjective and I think she was wanting it used as a verb lol. During this time I did run into my friend AP and me and her had an illuminating talk(at least on my end)which helps me decide how I'm going to proceed on certain things(more about that in a later post). So after the hanging around, laughing, joking, and a bit more drinking on my part; not to mention some cool pictures taken by my friend MS I of me looking like a Pirate Pimp, it was time to leave as we had to be at Dave 7 Buster's.
Day 1(Dave & Buster's)
The second half of my birthday celebration for that day was at Dave & Buster's. Now if you've never been there the best way I could describe it is that it's like Chuck 'E' Cheese for adults; minus the giant mouse plus the addition of alcohol. Now by this point I was considerably back in the sober range but still having fun. The plan was originally to get there at 6 but it took a little longer to leave Pirate Fest than expected so we didn't get there until 6:30 or so. A couple of people were a little miffed about it and that was understandable as I didn't call to inform them about my late status but that's mainly because my phone had died (I really need to get a new battery). Luckily though once I got there things were all cool. The first friend I ran into was my friend X and her son. i made sure to go say hi to her so that she wouldn't leave because of how late I was. The I saw my friend C who was there with her boyfriend. Waiting not too far inside was AH II and the people with her. I was very happy to see her there to help me celebrate my birthday. while I was saying hi to folks AH I and R was parking their car, it was agreed that since I was late I should do damage control and make sure everyone was still in a good mood. So we went to get seats and the lady in charge of that put us at this long table over by the bar which was big enough to fit most of us. Shortly after I sat down MF (the girl I've been seeing) came in and sat next to me. She looked very pretty and I was very happy to see her too. She sat next to me and we snuggled a bit because we were happy to see each other. Not long after my friends JH, G, and MS II came in. They gave me a gift bag full of stuff from Metropolis I'LL which made me very happy. If you don't know I'm a huge superman fan and it was really cool that they did that.
Ok, I'll admit that at this point I was starting to get a bit teary eyed. You see in all the years I've been in the St. Louis area having real friends is relatively new to me; so the fact that all of these people came to clebrate my birthday with me was really neat and made me feel extra special and loved. I know for some people that may not seem like a huge thing but it is to me. I tried to thank everyone for coming but I kept getting teary and choked up so I stopped. I think everyone got what I was trying to say.
Shortly after this Team Rocket(sorry guys but it's too cute) arrived we then all ordered food and it was quite good. I ordered myself a drink that was really tasty. My buzz from earlier didn't come back because I was sober again by this point and it would have taken more than that one to bring it back. While we were waiting on out food my friends RC and S showed up. They didn't order anything as they had gone to eat after leaving Fest and they came to hang out. It was a really good time and the food was great. I walked out with AH II to her car at one point because she had a book I had bought from her that she wanted to give me. I'll admit I could have waited in the restaurant for her to come back but I had something of an ulterior motive for going with her ;). While me and her were standing outside talking my friends RS and ES showed up. I had told them we all were done eating and we were going to be playing games. they said that's cool they were going to play games too but were also going to order food. I said cool, as there were tables in game area they could eat at. Later on I went with MF to her car to drop off my gifts and left-overs(also with an ulterior motive on my part lol). We came back inside and went to play some games. I loved that. I played some skee-ball with MF, got a group together to play a trivia game that they had. it was fantastic. As the evening went on folks started to leave telling me good by and wishing me a happy birthday. Overall that day was a fantastic day, it was the best birthday celebration I've had since I was a little kid.
Day 2
Monday September 26th 2011 was my actual birthday. I didn't really do much during the day. I did make a nice Logan's Run reference on my facebook and fetlife pages though. I spent most of the day relaxing, drinking, and watching the movies Tron and Tron: Legacy. I picked Tron because it is a movie from my childhood that I loved and it's about as old as I am.
Later on I did more celebrating when I went to The Crack Fox for my birthday. Now I didn't make this a party but I knew a lot ofmy friends were going to be there for a different event. As I was running low on money I only took about seven dollars with me. I figured I'd have one drink, hang with my friends, and just have a good time. it went even better than I expected. I had several drinks because the nice thing about going to a bar on your birthday(and letting people know that) is that folks want to buy you drinks to help you celebrate. I think the fact that it was my 30th made people want to help me celebrate it even more. I had gotten to the bar around 9:30 and there were a few people I knew already there that I was talking with, but the real good fun started around 11:00 or so when even more of my friends showed up.
My friends Team Rocket, P, RH,T, D, and AP helped me have a good time. After a couple of hours hanging out and having a few drinks it was time to go home. Now by this point I had been hitting on my friend AP for quite a bit and there was something I just had to do before I went home. So I told her I was getting ready to leave and asked her to step outside with me. Once we were outside I pulled her in and kissed her. If you ask me it was a pretty good kiss. I'm hoping she agrees as I plan to continue that at a later date. After that we exchanged numbers and I headed home.
So that's pretty much how my birthday went. I had a fantastic time and I can't believe haw lucky I am to have the life I do.
*The L in LA is not part of a name, it stands for Little.
Friday, September 16, 2011
Random update
About a week before the move I went to a party that was being thrown by my friends D & B. I had a great time; got to see and hang with good friends(some I hadn't seen in a while), got to know one friend just a bit better ;). I can't wait until the next party they throw.
It's funny that I mention those two things as they are sort of connected. Not really but on the same day that I moved into my new place I had a date with M, the friend I "connected" with at the party. After that I figured asking her out couldn't hurt. Well the date went pretty well. We went out to dinner and had good conversation to go with our really good food. It was different going out with someone I'd been running into for a couple of years. While we didn't really "know" each other we weren't strangers either. There was no pressure, I didn't feel the need to act like I had to impress her. I was able to be my relaxed self and didn't feel nervous at all which worked to my favor. We ended the night with a kiss and went our seperate ways but with plans to get together again soon. It's been about two weeks and I think things are going pretty well. I enjoy her company and she's said she enjoys mine too. It's nice to be dating someone where there is no pressure and things just feel relaxed.
I also recently got to be a part of Charolette Time's(stage name of course) first official burlesque performance, it was fantastic. She had asked me earlier in the week if I would be up for helping and I said of course. How could I not; she's really attractive, has an awesome personality, and if I thought I was her type I'd totally ask her out lol. Her performance was part of Subversion, which is a local awesome monthly event I go to, which had a country theme(it had a specific name but I suck at remembering it). The plan was that at one point she would point to me, have me come on stage, do some dancing and then kick me off. It went perfectly. I had a great time and friends who were there were telling me how cool that was; so I had a huge grin on my face for the rest of the night. Read her blog here, http://thelifeandcharlottetimes.com/, to see her post about it.
So all in all I've been having a great time making new friends, getting better connected with the ones I've already known for a bit. Next weekend is my birthday weekend. I'll be turning 30 on Monday September 26th. From what's planned, things are already looking to be great. So unless something huge happens between now and then, that is what my next post will be about.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Happy,
This last week or so made me realize a couple things: 1.) My definition of love was way too ridgid and had been causing me really stupid angst for a long time, 2.) I fealize that I am loved. Not only in the romatic sense either (although that is a pleasant bonus). It occurs to me that I've had my head up my ass for quite a while now; now that I've pulled it out I've realized the world is a brighter place than I realized.
So I'll be moving into a new apartment next week, I'm looking forward to it. It's been three years since I lived by myself and it will be nice to get back to that. Don't get me wrong I've enjoyed the last three years at my current place I just miss living by myself. My new place is going to be several blocks from my current one and I'll be on the 21st floor. I decided to get movers to move my furniture and stuff for me. I've had some friends offer to help me move which is really awesome but(at least this time) I've decided to be lazy and let someone else do all the work. I'll probably throw some sort of house warming party once I'm settled in and am confortable in my place.
I've also been making some new friends lately, which has been really cool. I even apeared in one's blog. In my opinion that is way awesome because to me that means I've become someone worth mentioning lol. I like making new friends and getting to know people; it's part of the reason I've felt these last 4 years have been amazing.
Right now I am enjoying life and feeling very happy. I don't know how long it will last but I plan on riding this wave for as long as it does.
*when I say "my girl" I mean one of my lovers. They are very important to me and when I mention them, I figure that makes it easier to have it come across who I'm refering to. Also I feel saying "My lover so and so" sounds really abnoxious and would rather just say "My girl" instead.*
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Attractive
FUCK YOU!!
I am really getting tired of the joke that folks like to say to me in regards of who I find attractive/date/fuck about how I like anything with a pulse that moves. Yes, I admit that I find a lot of women attractive. Tall, short, slender, bigger, large breasted, small breasted, whatever; I find women attractive. I don't really care if you agree with who I find attractive, because in all honesty it isn't for you. It's for me. Everyone has different things they find attractive in a person. There are things I'll find attractive in one person that I might not find attractive in another. If I point out to you a woman I think is cute/hot/fuckable I'm not doing it for you to approve, I'm doing it to express my opinion of what I find attractive. I get the fact that you might disagree with my opinion but unless you are planning on (if you are male) finding me someone or (if you are female) fucking/dating me yourself I don't need to hear it. If I only dated someone based on whether you found them attractive rather than what I thought I'd hardly be with anyone. I also acknowledge that I'm not the hottest guy in the world so not all the women I find attractive will find me attractive but I don't care. That doesn't change my opinion or my willingness to express it. I would hope that as my friend(s) you would at the very least accept that I like someone, even if you don't agree. There is a saying that "Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one"; well I prefer "Opinions are like genitals, you can share them with whoever you want but in the end they belong to you." So while I appreciate the fact that you might disagree with my choices/opinions on who I find attractive I don't appreciate you feeling the need to act as if I should not like what I like because you don't.
That's all I wanted to say really. Admittedly in the grand scheme of things in life this isn't a super important thing but it's something that I just needed to get off my chest.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Me and Polyamory
1.) I currently have three lovers that I get together with on occasion two of whom are poly themselves and one who is ok with me having other relationships.
2.) With the exceptions of a few times I've not actually been monogamous(the women I have been monogamous with are still in my fb friend's list though)
3.) As much as I would say I couldn't handle it, as long as I was aware of it upfront I actually have had no problems with it.
Honestly, she wasn't the first person to have ever suggested that to me over the last couple of years but she is the first to make me realize what I had been doing. I can't put my finger on the reasons why I've been trying to run from the idea of poly. Maybe it's because of sociaty, maybe it's because I tend to be stubborn, or it could even be that I've always had an idea in my head of what relationship I'd have and that does not fit. Then again (and this is the real reason) it could be all three. You know it's amazing how easy it is to lie to yourself. I guess it's because of all the people we know in life the one person we want to trust more than anyone is ourselves. Of course that's the one person we shouldn't trust.
One of the hurdles I've always claimed I had was jealousy, if I'm honest with myself in reality it's envy. Admittedly it is a thin line between the two, but there it is. I've always been envious of my friends who seem so happy in their relationships and I've wanted that happiness for myself for a long time. I've always tried to tell myself that I was going to find one person that would be everything to me as far as a relationship goes and in all honesty that is pretty much impossible. No one person can be everything to someone. As one or two people I've been involved with in the past have told me, there is no way anyone can actually live up to that sort of pressure. Hell, I can't even live up to that sort of pressure. I've come to realize that it is impossible for me to be someone's everything as I've come to realize, I don't want to be. The thought that it was what I wanted goes back to believing that that's what I was supposed to want. While I do believe that I can find true love I also realize that a.) I fall in love rather easily, b.) I'm ok with someone I'm with having other partners as long as they are upfront about it, and c.) I've got to stop confusing jealousy with envy.
Now while I'm able to admit this to myself(and I guess the world now) I'm not going to just start trying to form a relationship with any and every woman I can. I'm not ready for that at all. However, when I am ready to start dating or looking for a relationship again I'll be honest about this upfront. Both with myself and a potential partner. Does this mean I'm going to look for more than one partner when I start dating again; no, but I also won't be so closed off to the possibility of being involved with more than one person.
I realize this seems like a big backpedal or contradiction after one of the posts I made a couple of months back but looking back I realize I was ok with it then and I just used it as an excuse for not feeling as strong as I thought I should have felt.
As I said at the beginning of this post, it's amazing how a lover can make you realize something about yourself you didn't want to admit before. It's funny how admitting this has made me feel a lot better about my relationship past as well as be a bit less stressed about my relationship future. Alright, well I'm off to bed as I'm getting sleepy. All of this introspection is tiring after all.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Thoughts
Why the hell can't life be as easy as we want it to be. If it was up to me I'd be happy in a relationship enjoying someone's company hanging out with my friends and having a good time. Instead I'm doing the same things single which is very fun, but there are times where I wouldn't mind having someone to share it all with. Mind you this is not a depressed "Woe is me" sort of thing but more of a simple observation. I'm fast approaching 30 (two more months to be exact) and the fact that a lot of my friends who are younger than me are either in happy realtionships or planning marriages kind of makes me long for the same thing. I'll admit I tend to think about this a tad more when I'm drunk as opposed to when I'm sober. Why can't fining that special someone be as easy as everyone I know makes it seem. I don't know a single person who's story goes "After more than a decade of looking I finally found 'the one'" that would go a long way to making me feel a bit better about my single status. One thing I've come to realize is that I don't think I want kids of my own. Step kids are fine but I'm not really interested in having my own little rugrats running around that I may have to try and keep up with. Ok, post done. I'm sure my food will be ready soon and then I'll go home, eat , and then sleep. Night all have a good one :-)
Thursday, July 21, 2011
It seems I'm not a Vulcan after all
Friday, July 15, 2011
Dumped
There has been at least one good thing though. Actually it's seperate from the whole break-up thing. I got approved for a new apartment that I'll be moving into on the first of September. I like the building it's in. It's a one bedroom apartment in a high rise downtown that has a rooftop pool. That's actually my favorite part lol, with the way this summer has been I'm sure it will still be rediculously hot when I move so I'm totally looking forward to jumping in the pool. The only downside to this place is that fact that I've got to go back to paying to do my laundry. I haven't had to do that since my first apartment building. Looks like I'll have to make sure to keep some change around. I've had a few friends offer to help me move which I think is really cool and appreciate but I'm going to go the lazy route on this one and hire some movers. I'm doing that because I don't want to have to do any moving of the furniture myself. Like I said, the lazy route lol.
So was I hurt by the situation yes, am I going to let it keep me down, no. I do believe her when she says that she wasn't ready for things despite my bouts of irrationality and I hope that I'm wrong on that whole "dumped me to be with someone else" thought that's in the back of my head at the moment. Overall, I'll be fine, I'm still aliive after all. Which is probably good because I'm pretty sure I'd lose some friends if I were a zombie. Apparently people don't want to spend eternity as an undead rotting corpse that does nothing but eat flesh. Ironically enough though, spending eternity as a perfectly preserved undead corpse that drinks blood and can't go out into the sun is just fine though. ;) lol. Alright well my shift is about to start at work so let me get that over with so I can go hang out with friends, get drunk, and watch some hotties wrestle in olive oil. Ok, that sentence right there is one of the reasons that despite getting dumped I still love my life :-)
Friday, June 3, 2011
St. Louis Ren Faire
The first booth I stopped at was the booth for Dracosinister Blades. I know the man who runs it and I always like looking at what he has for sale. While I was there I said hi, shot the shit a bit, talked about the party that's being held in July that I plan to attend. I soon noticed that J and R was walking to a different spot and left to catch up with them. I rode with them after all and didn't want to get left behind. We walked up the hill stopping to say hi to folks here and there; when we decided to check the schedule to see what all was planned. We happened to notice that the band Musical Blades was going to be playing soon so we decided to head that way.
Let me stop for a second to mention that there was this really cute mime that stopped us as we were walking up the hill. It took me a minute to realize it but she was telling us that J was beautiful(no argument here) and that either R or myself should buy her a rose. I've got to say that that mime was so cute I wanted to take her somewhere and see if I could get her to make a sound or two ;). So back to the blog post.....
On the way to watch Musical Blades we happened to stop and watch a guy doing a show, pretty much caught the tail end of it but it was still cool as he was on a tightrope juggling torches. While I was standing there I happened to notice my friend MO's booth. I decided to go over and say hi because she's cool and I always enjoy hanging with her. She happened to be a bit on the tired side but still good company. We chatted for a bit before me, J, and R headed towards the show. After a while we noticed that it was close to show time so we moved a bit faster to get there.
It was a really good show. I'd seen these guys perform at The Crack Fox before for Subversion: Pirate Booty Edition and I really like their stuff. This show was exceptionally good because for this first show there wasn't a lot of people there so they decided to perform it right where the audience was instead of on the stage I have to say that that was really cool. It didn't hurt that I was in the next aisle enjoying the show. While we were sitting there we were enjoying a skin of mead that J and R had brought(J had the mead and R had the wineskin). Not long into the performance our friend AH came over and joined us. AH is pretty cool. I've hung out with her on several occasions and have always had a good time, today was no exception. We shared the mead with her and she pretty much joined us as we walked around Faire.
So after the show we decided to go check out the jousting on our way there J was approached by a woman who is a fan of hers(J happens to be a performer) it was really fun to watch as it was a total fangirl. Me and R joked about how we felt like we were hanging with a famous person and how we wanted our own fangirls.
Right before getting to the joust I happened to see my friend MS, who also happened to be working Faire.I decided to go say hi and she proceeds to give me a hug after having just gotten soaked with water to help her cool off. I had just seen her get wet so I shouldn't have been surprised. It was pretty funny. I will say having my shirt wet felt pretty good because it was a nice sunny day that was getting pretty hot. As we were talking MS noticed that I didn't have a hat on. She admonished me for not taking precautions to keep myself cool in the heat. So she wets a scarf and gives it to me to wear. I tried to argue but I've learned over the years not to for too long. To be fair it was a good thing I gave in because that wet scarf on my head did a pretty good job of keeping me cool for a while. Not long after that she had to take off as she was working and I couldn't keep her for too long. Luckily the joust are was right there so I didn't have to go far.
The joust was pretty fun to watch. I wound up cheering for the English guy as his opponent was a French guy(the setting for the Ren Faire was 16th century France after all). It was very fun to watch especially the actual jousting. I had tried to take some pictures of the moments when they clashed but unfortunatly my phone had a slight delay and I always missed it by a couple of seconds. So after the joust was done I went to find J, R, and AH who were standing over by a tree. I was curious as to why they moved and they told me about this asshat who got a bug up his butt because J happended to say crotch near his kid. We were getting ready to leave the joust when we noticed CM stanging nearby. He was selling pickles and we decide to go say hi. I forgot who mentioned it first but there was talk about how another friend of ours, AO, could suck the inside out of a pickle. I bought the first pickle and thus begins the hunt to find a straw and AO.
J, myself, and R were so interested in seeing this the first thing we did was go hunt for a straw as one was needed to make this stunt happen. On the way we ran into more people we know. I stopped at another weapons shop and wound up buying this dagger that I thought looked really cool. We eventually made our way back to the booth where MO was and guess who was there but AO so we told her how we wanted to see the pickle thing but it turns out the pickle we had was too small. We were ready to give up on this when lucky us CM happened to show up with his bucket of pickles. It was on now. So a straw was produced and AO proceeded to try and suck the inside out of the pickle. Unfortunatly it didn't quite work out as the second pickle that got picked wasn't big enough either. While we were standing there laughing and talking I noticed someone was selling roses. I decided to buy three of them and Gave one to MO, one to AO, and one to J. I must say, big beautiful cleavage is a perfect place to hold a rose lol. It was definetly a gorgeous site :). While standing there I noticed MS had shown up and I went and chatted with her some more as we hadn't hung out in a while and it gave us a chance to catch up.
Not too much later we decided it was time for food as we had been drinking for a bit and had gotten hungry. On the way to food though we became distracted by belly dancers; three of them with my favorite being the tall, busty , brunette who looked stunning. After the belly dancers there was a guy who twirled fire. He was cool but the one I thought was the most entertaining was another friend of mine S. She was performing her own fire performance that was funny and cool. I even got added as part of the show. She used me as the unknown "member of the audience"(doubt anyone bought it but I think that was the idea lol). It was really cool because she twirled fire inches from my face and I could feel the warmth of the flames. By the way I've got to say watching someone do a fire performance without music in the background is really cool because the sound the fire makes as it twirls and spins is awesome. So after saying hi to S and chatting for a bit it was off for food.
We didn't have to walk too far as a food stand wasn real close. On the way there I ran into another friend KW who I had run into earlier and was really interested in the shirts he said he had. After seeing them I really wanted to buy one but unfortunatly I did not have enough money to buy one. R had the same problem but I know that one of these days I'll get one hopefully before Pirate Fest. At the food stand I happened to run into T. The same T from my Conflation post. We shot the shit a bit and I asked him if he was going to the party I mentioned earlier. He said yeah and I asked if I could ride with him and he said yeah so I was like woohoo.
After eating we went ahead and watched one of the ending shows they were having for the day. There were two and the other one was at the other end of the park. The one we chose had another performance by Musical Blades which was cool. There was also some humor, a guy playing on an instrument I don't quite know the name of, and overall good entertainment.
After all of that it was time to leave as Faire for the weekend was over. I looked at my watch and realized five or six hours had passed. You know you've had a good time when that much time has gone by and you didn't even realize it. On the way out we stopped at one more booth and chatted with some more friends. We chatted with TM(CM's wife), her mom AC, and KG. S also stopped by and we all just chilled and hung out for a bit. I bought this cool mask that I would love to do a costume with if I can figure out how to wear it and still be able to see. This mask does not work with my glasses lol. After a while we left as we kind of had to. It is really cool knowing a bunch of people who work the Ren Faire because it makes the experience even more fun than just going as a patron.
So that was most of my day at the St. Louis Ren Faire. Admittedly I didn't talk about everything this is mostly the highlight as there was quite a bit of walking around and just standing and talking but it was all fun. I will say though I am very glad I have good legs. This is definetly not something to do if you can't walk very well not without a wheel chair or something. So after Faire we all went over to another mutual friend AS's how and hung out with her and G for a little bit before going to eat at Hibachi Grill. The food there was really good. Once dinner was done they dropped me off at home and that was the end of a really great day.